From Elon James White Tuesday night.

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Anonymous said: Hey PK, I hope I'm not asking a repeat question, but I was wondering if you have ever felt insecure about your art and if so what did you do to get past it?



Yes, I have. There was no easy cure though because when you’ve been drawing for a while but you still realize your skills feel mediocre, it can be really crushing to try to deal with. You’ll grapple with questions like “am I ever going to get better? What if I’m stuck at this level forever? What if I stay… “bad”?” and that’s super hard to deal with. I’ll try to map out my ages and how I felt about my art:

1-12: Art was all fun and I never really thought about being amazing until I got on the internet from the time I was a tiny baby holding a crayon to when I first got on an oekaki (when I was 11). Around 12 I started feeling really competitive for some reason, which is just so absurd for a 12-year old (also thinking back to being like 9 and thinking I could do better art than the people who made Spyro), but kind of highlights a personality trait I’ve always had. I didn’t really compare myself to others until this point.

Around 12-16 I was really starting to become more critical of my work and getting better. It was mostly because I had ideas, and I wanted to draw them… I wasn’t trying to improve for the sake of improving, it was because I thought “well I really want to be able to draw this idea” — so I had goals at least, which was good! I also started imitating artists like Sugimori etc when I was 12-13. I started taking commissions when I was 14 and learned how much it sucked to earn 6 dollars in 2 hours of work. Really bad work. With a mouse. I didn’t have a tablet until late into being 14.

Looking back on it, if I had been so self conscious of things I drew from being a kid until being like 16, I don’t know how I would’ve kept drawing… It took a really long time to get to a low point on the mediocre scale! That was something I suddenly realized when I was about 16-17-18, because I ended up with artist friends in HS. Our skill levels were similar but I practiced more than they did so I was a little further along. I guess I took it more seriously? Or maybe I had nothing else to do. Anyway, I always always got kind of competitive with people who I thought were better than me artwise, so maybe it was best that I didn’t think that with my friends. (I have since stopped caring about that!)

Enterting college was rough. Suddenly, this was me in a place full of people who do it professionally, and who were going to become people who did it professionally. And no matter how much I drew, I hated the style I drew in. Hated! I would have little episodes over it all the time (Marl can confirm this), but despite this, I kept drawing. My least favorite works are things I did in college. They were trying SO HARD to be something that stood out because I was trying SO HARD to find my artistic voice, and I knew it wasn’t good enough yet. And keeping going despite that is just BRUTAL. I would get legitimately angry over it. Frequently! “What do I need to do? What now?” The only way around it was to look at inspiration and take pieces that I felt were in the right direction. Most of what I got angry about was trying to develop Flora stuff and original works, and the other half was about learning how to paint. I’d go, “okay, legs drawn like this… this is important to remember this and try this” - and so I’d draw a flowercat with different legs, see how it panned out. I had to learn that it was really important to CHANGE THINGS FREQUENTLY even if it “looks bad” - maybe you saw my giant stack of sketchbooks, but most of them are packed to the brim with me making drawings that I don’t like at all. I still make plenty of drawings that I don’t like, but those are REALLY IMPORTANT so I can figure out what I don’t like about them and so I can take parts I DO like from it later.

It wasn’t until like… hmm, the very end of PMD-e that I started to feel more secure in my work. And that was what, about a year ago? Which is, not coincidentally, when I finally started Flora. I’ve tried comics in the past with Flora stuff, but I always “knew” that I wasn’t good enough yet. Not enough work had been put into it yet, the style wasn’t there yet, I didn’t know enough about art yet… so I made a lot of practice comics before getting to the thing I’ve been waiting to get to for a decade. I completed a lot of silly comics and a lot of PMD-e comics and just made sooo many pages in preparation for actually doing my own comic to a consistent schedule. I had to prepare myself.

So… it wasn’t until very recently that I would say my insecurities have melted away. I have my style, I’ll continue to develop it, but it’s going in a direction of my choosing because I finally have the experience to back it up and do whatever I want with it, but that was on literally 2 decades + of hard work and half of that was spent feeling agitated over not being where I wanted to be yet. I don’t know where I’ll be in a decade, but I can only hope I’m pushing my own boundaries further as time goes on.

I hope this helps! It’s really an ongoing process but when the relief finally comes, it’s very sweet, because it frees you up. Until then, you have to try your best to achieve ideas with your current skillset — it’s just important that you *try* and you focus on things you want to improve. Constantly challenge yourself and try new things. I know I’ve stressed this in particular, but I NEVER EVER would have gotten where I am without trying a new way of drawing this or that, or trying a color I don’t normally use, or looking up a ref of a cat eye, or just whatever various things I normally didn’t think about.

I felt I should reblog my answer from my other blog, here!

I seriously need to start saving money for whenever you do that book, PK. =w= As long as you are still doing it.

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How puppies help when you’re sick.

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Adulthood doesn’t mean you stop drinking juice pouches and eating fruit snacks. It means buying your own. 

and mixing them with vodka

At 3 in the morning while marathoning your favorite show because nobody can tell you to go to bed.

And then regretting your decisions the next morning.

Because you have to work.

and make more money to buy fruit snacks and juice pouches.

and vodka

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girls who pretend to act stupid because they think it’s cute need to be slapped in the face with a brick

girls who pretend to act stupid because they think it’s cute need to be taught that their thoughts and opinions matter. so many girls are taught that being smart and capable is threatening to boys and will scare them away. please don’t hit these girls with bricks thanks

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Cat doesn’t know what to do with the butterfly that flew on its paw.

I can’t breathe I’m laughing too hard



Cat doesn’t know what to do with the butterfly that flew on its paw.

I can’t breathe I’m laughing too hard

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You’re looking toward international growth. Will you be opening parks such as Discovery Cove or will there be more SeaWorlds?

Or it could be something else, right? I don’t mean to be coy about it. But our discussions involve those brands. It also involves new concepts that we have in mind … that are different from what we do today.

Where would you get the whales if you open more SeaWorld parks?

We haven’t collected whales since the ’70s. We’re fortunate to have a successful, thriving breeding program within our parks. We certainly have those capabilities with our current collection of killer whales.

So would they come just from your current collection?

In all likelihood, yes. We don’t collect whales in the wild and we have 29 whales in our care, so we certainly have the resources to develop and build more parks as it sits.

Jim Atchison confirms your favorite whales are headed to the Middle East and China.  Nǐ hǎo, Nalani!  

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I can hardly say that I am surprised. Such a game would be utterly lacking if I were not to make an appearance. And of course, the more involvement on my part, the better the game was bound to become.

I must admit I’m looking forward to the inevitable fresh wave of admirers that will seek me out when they encounter my beautiful self in the game.









IMPORTANT: So they had these cards in the women’s restrooms at this doctor’s office that I was at. I’m really happy that they put them in there because it makes it easier for a woman to escape an abusive relationship without the abuser expecting anything. It gives me hope when I see things like this.

Oh yes, because women are never abusers.

I never said that they can’t/ aren’t. I’m well aware that some women are. I was just trying to talk about a positive thing that I found in a restroom. Don’t turn my post into something that it’s not. God fucking damn it, it’s like you can’t talk about something positive on this site without someone trying to ruin it or twist the original posters words.

Thank you so much for the positive post, and the VERY true words at the asshole commenting on your post. This is the exact reason why I don’t like this website sometimes. Christ.

If you have to qualify Situation A with “but Situation B happens, too,” do you actually give a shit about Situation B? Or are you looking for ways to derail Situation A?


40% of domestic violence is experienced by men, do you suppose they also put these cards in the men’s restroom?

Wouldn’t seeing these cards in the restroom alert abusers that there were probably the same cards in the other gender restroom, possibly making them more violent and cutting off their partner even more from resources that could help them?

This seems ill thought out. Unless, of course, they are only in the women’s restroom. In which case they are ignoring 40% of domestic violence victims. I wonder why.

getting really tired of this 40% myth and how frequently everyone scrambles to believe it because they want to look reasonable and fair.

While some people may believe that there is a higher reported incidence of women experiencing violence by their male partners due to men underreporting when they are victims, the reality is the opposite. In 2008, 72 percent of the intimate partner violence against males and 49 percent of the intimate partner violence against females was reported to police.Catalano, Smith, Snyder, & Rand (2009). Bureau of Justice Statistics Selected Findings: Female Victims of Domestic Violence. U.S. Department of Justice, Office of Justice Programs, NCJ 228356.

Researcher Elspeth McInnes…  recounts some of her research that showed that when men talked about women’s violence against men, some cited abuse as not having a hot meal on the table, not having the children bathed before bed, or women spending money on gambling or shopping. At the more severe end of the spectrum, they nominated verbal and emotional violence as abuse. Then, a tiny minority documented physical abuse, and an even smaller minority named sexual abuse. 

“Women were talking about being run over, being drugged and raped at knifepoint, having their children dangled over high rise balconies till they did as they were told and of course you get verbal and emotional violence,” says McInnes. “When we were talking about physical violence against men, one of the worst examples was that she banged his head with the cupboard door – which isn’t good – but the sheer level of fear, harm and terror that women talked about was simply not present in what the men’s data showed.” 

The vast majority of domestic assaults are committed by men. Even when men are victimized, 10% are assaulted by another man. In contrast, only 2% of women who are victimized are assaulted by another woman.2

Two studies have found that at least 40% of police officer families experience domestic violence, (1, 2) in contrast to 10% of families in the general population.(3) A third study of older and more experienced officers found a rate of 24% (4), indicating that domestic violence is 2-4 times more common among police families than American families in general.

in conclusion while domestic abuse hotlines in men’s bathrooms would be great too, women are the majority of victims of violent, life-threatening domestic abuse by a lot more than 40%, and men are still the majority of perpetrators of violent, life threatening domestic abuse, even to other men and boys. this is not a remotely equivalent situation.

using abused men and boys to prop up the myth that women abuse men right back nearly as much is toxic, abhorrent nonsense. we need to cut it the fuck out. 

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